So, we're going to start packing up our things again. There's not a whole lot to pack since much of it is in storage right now, but we have to go through toys, books, cds, movies, etc and separate any of our stuff that may have gotten thrown together! This is going to be a very costly move too, so we're trying to figure that out too, but I know that God has taken care of us and met all our needs so far, so why would He stop now?
I am so incredibly sad about moving so far away. Don't get me wrong, I am SO STINKIN excited to do youth ministry again! To have a home, a church family and a community to minister to and be ministered to. But, I'm still so sad. We told God we'd go anywhere, and we'd even considered Maine and Washington....whole different states thousands of miles away. But now I have to put action to my words. Big Lake is still in this state, but Texas is freakin big state! We'll be six hours away from our parents and friends, and even further away from some of our friends and siblings. Daniel's family will be EVEN farther away now. I want our children to know their families. I know there will be people who love our children like family (we already have several friends like this!!!) But I want them to know the amazing people who've been HUGE parts of our lives and made us who we are; individually and as a family. I know it's managable if all parties want that too, but it's just going to be harder than I'd planned.
In those moments when I just begin to cry in anticipating moving, I keep quoting to myself; "I will never leave you, nor forsake you" over and over. God who loved me and took care of me in Ennis, is going to love me and take care of me in Big Lake. And yesterday during the worship service, God gave me a thought that brought me even more comfort. We were singing about how our God is not a god of man-made hands, and that He's been on His throne even before time began. And it occured to me, (though it's not a new thought) that God doesn't have to move with me from Ennis to Big Lake. He's already been working there in Big Lake! I can go anywhere in the world, and my God is always with me because He's already at wherever I'm going! (I know this is an elementary thought, but I needed to remember that!)
ps-also exciting news: We've read and pray about how to prepare our children to fight for their purity (including sexually). And the other day, Chaz was watching Cubo, which is a children's tv network that actually has moral shows; and a commercial for something came on and it had some women in swimsuits in it. Well, Chaz yelled as he turned his head away, "Ugh, I don't want to look at that, turn the channel!!!" All of this because he'd heard his daddy tell him this the other day when that commercial had come on and Daniel looked away and turned the channel. I'm so proud of my boy!!!!!! Even at three, he can begin to fight and not allow "even a hint" into his life!